"I want someone to share all my secrets with, someone to talk to late at night when I can't sleep, someone that feels comfortable around my family, someone to comfort me when I'm scared, to hold me when I'm sad, someone that doesn't need to say they love me for me to know it's true."
Monday, May 30, 2011
Update
Monday, February 28, 2011
Hiatus
I've been away for quite sometime.. A lot of things happened.. Good and bad..
I completely over him na. It was December when I decided to finally let go of everything. I cried a lot..as in a lot...It was never easy..I know its exaggeration, considering that we didnt even had a real relationship. Ours was just more of a bond..a romantic bond..We dont say I love you's anymore, and it helped a lot. Medyo bumaba ng isang level ang closeness namin, but its better that way. It was when I decided to welcome other people in my life.. I met new friends sa office, but knowing me, its all just temporary.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
A Letter To the One that God has Prepared For Me
- I love this, thanks playingmonalisa, ^_^
I am wondering at this very minute if you are
thinking of me, if like me, you are wondering
what is taking us so long to find each other.
Many
times I thought I finally found you only to be
disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not
yet ended. I
get up each morning hoping, dreaming,
longing to meet you.
I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be
as romantic as the ones I have seen in
movies? Or
is it possible that I have known you all my life
but
we have yet to realize that we are meant for
each
other? Oh how I wish you were here right now
because you
are the only one who has the answers to all my
questions.
Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really
known "love". I do not have the answer to that
question either but I believe that, more often
than not,
we will never really know what love is until we
find that right
finally fall
asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are
always in my dreams. It seems that, for now,
that is
the only place where I can hold on to you, long
enough to
tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you
would kiss away my fears and wrap me with
your arms of
love.
And this, all the more, makes me want to wake
up
and face the new day ahead with the hope
that soon
enough, you will no longer be a dream but a
reality and
once again I am assured that you are worth
the wait.
And when that time comes, everything will fall
into its
place, just as I had imagined, just as I had
thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it
would be!
By then, I would simply look back and smile at
all
that I have gone through, in spite of the pain
and
amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be
very
thankful because they all led me to you!
In the meantime, take care of yourself for me.
Hold on to our dream and don't even think of
letting go.
Believe in your heart that we will find each other
no matter what happens. God has planned the
course and it is up to us to follow the directions.
Don't
worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God
saw to
it that all the roads, no matter which one you
choose to follow, lead to me 
Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father,
I confess that I have not always been as careful as I should've been with my heart. From time to time, my desire for love has caused me to leave my heart in the wrong hands. I now commit my heart into Your hands for safekeeping. Please help me to stop being so impulsive with what you deem so precious. As I learn to celebrate Your love for me, let me learn from Your example what a bridegroom should really be like. Help me to never settle for less than what you desire for me. As I embrace You as the Lover of my soul, keep my affections in the haven of Your own heart. As I rest in Your love, make me more discriminating of those who approach me. I ask that You take over this area of my life. Keep me from those You know would hurt my heart. I invite You to set a hedge around me and keep me from all who would draw me into unfruitful relationships until the day you present me to the mate that You have selected for me. Grant me the discernment to recognize him as he recognizes me. Cleanse me from the temptation to typecast the men I meet according to what I see. Help me to trust in Your knowledge and lean not on my own understanding. I know that You know what is best for me; therefore I yield to Your choice.In Jesus Name.
Amen.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Confused..
Im starting to grow my wings again..sana magtuloy-tuloy na sya..I need to change my passwords, para di ko na sya maalala, ano ba naman kasing nakain ko at pangalan nya ginawa kong password sa mga tools kaya lagi ko tuloy sa naiisip. OMG, im still crazy, when will I ever learn. .sana ngayon na nga..Kelangan kong isaksak sa utak ko na wala talagang pag asa, ano ba!!!! Kalimutan mo na sya, mag move on ka na. Wala kang mapapala sa mga taong paasa na katulad nya..
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Wallflower
I am not
beautifulthat is the cold reality I have learned to face a long time
agoat least I like to think of myself as someone who is tolerable to
the vision. At least, I have a face any mother could loveBut, dont you
sometimes wish that you were breathtakingly beautiful that men
practically drooled at your sight and grabbed the nearest sharp object
they could find? Its funny but honestly, I do, why? Well, people treat
you better when youre beautiful. Didnt you notice that pretty people
are more blessed because they are often looked upon or smiled at or
greeted by any stranger they meet? With just a cheeky smile, or a bat of
an eyelash, they are given more ketchup or tissue at Mc Donalds.
Bullies become mild mannered gentlemen, willing to offer you their
seat in an overloaded bus or a jam-packed jeep or MRT or LRT. They will
do anything, follow you around like a lost puppy because theyre hooked
to those pretty and beautiful ladies. You might think that its unfair
but it really isThats how our society works. Lucky are those who are
blessed with the right features but what about those who are not as
fortunate? They are either ignored or ridiculed.
I know it is pathetic to dwell on my imperfections. As the saying goes, it is whats inside that countsI know all of thatI have memorized it by heart but I just cant help but feel insecure sometimesnot when the vicious cycle goes on and on againnot when our society is the one who worships beauty.
Like a wallflower, I am easily ignored or passed byPity isnt it? This world is in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty..
Wee
Back to business na namn, di na sya block. So happy.. ^_^
Friday, September 17, 2010
To the future love of my life..
I dont know you yet.. But I know you're out there. I am sure you are witty,smart, funny and kind. Im sure you're not a jejemon because I will not be the least bit attracted to you if you are, jejeje! I like to do things on my own..But im sure it would be a lot more fun I would do it with you. I just hope you wont get tired of my very unpredictable moods.Please know that I value honesty in relationship very much.I am a big ball of mush and I hope you don't find it weird if I give/send you letters of affection once in awhile. I can be sweet and crazy and spontaneous. I'm crazy .We will have a lot of fun, crazy times in store so be ready.In times when I am quiet, don't fret. There's nothing wrong with me. There are moments when I would just like to sit and stay silent. Consider this as your "happy hour" because I would not mind if you do your own things too like watch basketball on TV or play PS3. Or you can go online and play computer games, I don't care. But my silent episodes usually last for 2 hours max, so after 2 hours, I hope you don't mind if I tell you to stop whatever it is you are doing so we can cuddle.I would like you to know that your empress is a moody son of a bitch. I have my 'bright, sunshin-y' moments and I have my 'emo' moments too and both of these moments you can experience in a span of 5 minutes. Haha, Hmnn.. I might have had a bad day at work or maybe it's the time of the month (fullmoon?) haha. On times like this, RUN! ^_^ Seriously, when I cry for no reason, just hold me tight and kiss me and tell me wonderful things. Because no matter how strong I am, I have my weak episodes too and I would love it if you will be by my side to tell me that everything will be okay. I'm sure we'd have fights both major and petty and we'll have days when we just want to cut each other's throat Let's try not to shout at each other, okay? Let's sit and talk our problems through and discuss it like the mature adults that we are. If I tell you "I'm okay" after a fight, please know that I am NOT okay. You don't have to worry about it because I will be okay in the morning. Just hug me tight the entire night. Lastly, while I am waiting for you to come into my life, I hope you don't mind if I go out on dates once in awhile. Because who knows, one of them might be you. Don't worry, if that happens, we'll know.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Back in the Floor
Its so nice to be back! I missed my team mates and the whole SnB T2. Hays, andaming new faces, daming new T2, wew..Im glad that Im back, but sad that Marie is no longer here,nakakalungkot naman. Pero ganun talaga, Gelai will be resigning soon dahil nagiging kumplikado na yung pregnancy nya. Nauubos na ang mga friends ko. Goodluck, panahon na sigurong maging friendly na ako, kung ayaw kong maging outcast. (",)
Blessing in disguise ang preventive suspension ko, isipin mo yun, for how many years, nun lang ako sobrang nakapagpahinga ng bonggang-bongga. 15 days yata, haha. Pinakamahaba kong bakasyon before was 9 days, but it was way back Oct of 2008. Pero nakakainip din pala yung walang ginagawa, nakakatamad! Salamat kay Ernie, may nakakausap ako nung mga time na yun.Though para syang si Cinderella. Hmp. He told me, I'll be the first to know kung magiging sila ni Dynahgin, so meaning ba nun may plano pala talaga sya? maybe nililigawan nya? Hmn, bahala sya. Kung san sya masaya dun sya. Naguguluhan na ako.
I learned a lot of things while naka PS ako. Madami din nangyari. I learned to value the things that I have, before sobrang gustong gusto kong masuspend, magresign at kung anu-ano pa dahil tinatamad na ako sa trabaho ko, pero ngayon, narealize ko na dapat maging thankful ako na may trabaho ako. Ang pangit palang maging tambay. Nakakadegrade, feeling ko napaka unproductive ko nung mga panahong yun. Nakakababa ng self-esteem. Buti na lang I was able to bounce back. Sabagay, di naman talaga ako guilty. Mabait ako eh! (Conceited ever) Dahil din sa PS na yun, I was able to spend quality time with my family, specially with my siblings. Namiss ko pala sila. Di kasi kami nagkakausap lagi. I missed my friends, Juliet and Aida. Kahit minsan umiiwas na ako kay Juliet dahil puro sermon ang ginagawa nya sa akin dahil sa ginawa ko kay Jes. Si jes naman, hays, hangga't maari ayaw ko syang makita muna. Kumukulo ang dugo ko. Si Aida naman, kararating lang from Dubai to attend her brother's wedding. I missed her so much, but we dont talk anymore. Pero kahit ganun, tinuturing ko pa rin syang isa sa mga close friend ko. I also received a good news from Myrene, (James' ex-girlfriend) she's 4 months pregnant, and its a twin. Ang saya, ill be a ninang soon. Sayted! :D
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Friday, August 27, 2010
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